omg! i am so fat!

okay, not really fat at all, but not feeling particularly healthy. i'm actually a couple pounds over my default weight of 150. that’s the weight i usually rebound back to & on me, it’s not so terrible. technically within the normal bmi range, depending on how tall you think i am. (i maintain that i'm 5’6”!)
well, my willpower is not helping me through & i'm too shy (read-antisocial) to join a gym. i would like to take up swimming. good exercise, low impact. we'll see how things work out. maybe i can convince s to go swimming at the rec with me. he keeps saying he wants to lose weight, too.